誰の為に生きているの? さえない日々を過ごして

[dr4b]

The overarcing storyline for the evening is that I went to Tamachi with februaryfour and cienna and did karaoke and Thai food.

The underarcing storyline is that I think I came to a few conclusions about myself. I mean, I already knew these to some extent, but they were driven home a little harder tonight.

First, I am not very good at talking to casual baseball fans about baseball.

Second, I don't really know how to have female friends.

Third, frustrating as it is, I think I'm a better person when speaking Japanese than when speaking English.

Fourth, I find my future more distressingly fuzzy than ever.

And finally, I can't hit that high note in Aiko's song "Kabutomushi" and I really should just give up already.

Comments

[cyfis.livejournal.com]

I can't comment on the baseball, but

Second, I don't really know how to have female friends.

If by "good at" you mean "number of", that's an inevitable side effect of having geeky hobbies.

Third, frustrating as it is, I think I'm a better person when speaking Japanese than when speaking English.

Because Japanese forces you to be more polite?

[dr4b]

Well, or more like, I can't speak freely the same way so I am less likely to say things that are either rude and/or inappropriate -- and if I do say anything inappropriate, it is more likely to be taken as "deanna doesn't know how to speak Japanese" instead of "deanna says stupid things".

[radioclash22.livejournal.com]

Everyone is their own harshest critic. I'm sure you're fine. I didn't notice you say anything abrasive on our day out last winter.

I actually regret not engaging you about baseball more, being that you're a walking encyclopedia. My loss.