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[dr4b]

Funny. A year ago, on September 1st at 2pm, I was about an hour into the sky on my way to Japan for a week.

The more disconnected I feel here, the more I wonder if I should seriously look into spending some significant time living and working over there. I don't think I'd want to teach English though, so I'll have to come up with something else.

I think too much for my own good.

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[dr4b]

It's not so much the running away this time, so much as that one of the main reasons I've waffled on seriously trying to live in Japan in the past have had to do with being really connected to where I lived (such as my wide social network in Pittsburgh, or when Eli and I were engaged, my connection to him in Seattle).

I do realize that running off for most of the summer didn't help me become any more connected to Seattle, and if anything it probably exacerbated the problem. I don't know, maybe I've just become unfun to be around, but I feel like much of my social interaction has become highly lopsided in terms of who calls who. I really kind of thirst for a friendship with someone who actually wants to be around me as much as I want to be around them (and is in the same city as me). It's been a while.

At any rate, the thoughts of Japan were that I really would love to go there for more than just a week at a time, and might as well look into it now that I don't have as much holding me to one location. Sort of like how I was pondering moving to California as well. If I'm going to spend many evenings alone, might as well spend them alone somewhere like Tokyo where I can hone my language skills just by sheer immersion.

[mh75.livejournal.com]

I don't know, maybe I've just become unfun to be around, but I feel like much of my social interaction has become highly lopsided in terms of who calls who. Its funny how much J has been complaining about that lately too. But NO ONE wants to take the lead and say 'i want to do this' so everyone just sits around waiting for something to happen. it sucks.

If I'm going to spend many evenings alone, might as well spend them alone somewhere like Tokyo. Yeah, i get that.