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Deanna ([personal profile] dr4b) wrote2004-11-25 05:13 am

cucumbers and burritos

The last day or two have really sort of been a hodgepodge of emotion, I guess. Old feelings, new feelings, mostly good, mostly confusing. No, nothing you need to really know or worry about, I suppose.

Anyway, today I slept in quite a bit, getting up at like 1:30pm. Got up and stuff, and went to PNC Park, to the Pirates store, where I was shocked to find out that they simply don't make Pirates player number t-shirts anymore because apparently they just don't sell well enough to be worth it. Good thing Megan and I both have our Kendall shirts. I didn't manage to find an oldskool shirt, but I did get a t-shirt for Megan that I'm happy to keep if she doesn't like it, and a book about the Pirates history. Yay.

Hit campus after that for more Megan shopping. I ran into [personal profile] jcreed in the UC on my way to the shoppe though and he helped me pick out a hooded sweatshirt for Megan, though since he doesn't know her, it was mostly him agreeing with me when I looked at shirts and said "dang, this is ugly!" We decided to go to Squirrel Hill and get a bagel and hang out and stuff. Mmm, bagels. We hung out at Brugger's for an hour chatting, and then I had told [profile] bhudson I would come annoy him at some point, so we did that. Hung out there talking for another hour before I finally got off my phone fear and called the King-Jensen folks, only to find they were sitting down to dinner, whoops. So Jason and Benoit and I went out to the McKnight Mad Mex and met up with [profile] mj2q, where we had yummy Mad Mex food, but it was really noisy anyway. Apparently the Pete's Wicked Ale cheese is now Dos Equis Cheese, and it's a little different, but essentially still the same.

Benoit gave Jason a ride home and Mark and I came back here, where we were shortly joined by [personal profile] dgr and [profile] georgejas. We played a game of Deadwood, and about halfway through it Benoit came back out here too. I think I won the game, I was tied with Chris for money but I had more rank and roles or something. Arr. After that we played a couple hands of Rook, and I think Mark won that overall, and then George wanted to teach us all a game she knew called Cucumber. It was pretty damn goofy. I figured out some strategies pretty early on and I won overall... it was pretty goofy though and mostly involved screwing over the person on your left. The person on my left was Benoit, so I felt kind of bad about that.

Ah well, after that everyone went home, and Mark and I stayed up chatting a while, which is why it's like 5am now (but of course it only feels like 2am to me and everyone knows I never sleep). Tomorrow morning I have to get up and drive out to my step-grandparents' house in Beaver, and I'll probably just end up staying there all day, and over the night, and then I fly out of Pittsburgh on Friday afternoon.

I'm not really looking forward to leaving Pittsburgh. It's not that I love this city, because I've come to realize that I honestly don't. What I love about here is the presence I feel of other people and all. I love the idea that there are lots of people here who honestly want to see me and hang out and do stuff and have the time and energy for it. I do love my friends in Seattle, but many of them are tied up in their own lives and it's harder to spontaneously call people and do stuff, whereas this week I have been doing most things spontaneously and it's been pretty great. Also, I've been hugged a lot, and damn, I miss being hugged a lot. I mean, not necessarily the overly touchy-feeliness of the CS lounge or anywhere like that, I think I get freaked out by that sort of thing now, but, damn. *sigh* Maybe I am lonelier than I've been trying to convince myself I am. And why do I think I mispelled "lonelier"?

bleh.
tshuma: (fragility)

[personal profile] tshuma 2004-11-25 07:51 am (UTC)(link)
I feel the same way about the town.... And that's even though the majority of folks I know have left since I was there. It still has that feel for me, of being full of people who are open and affectionate and friendly and warm...there were things about it I really didn't miss, but I think there were more that I do still miss now, and most of all the nifty people.

I"m sorry it's been a little heavier on the bitter than the sweet in terms of a trip, though. Or maybe the proportions are the other way around, until you think of leaving. Either way, I hope you feel better about going back to Seattle soon.

(Getting a hug from me might be weird for you, although I feel like offering one. I'll try to send it through Mark, which should feel a bit more natural.)